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Wednesday, March 07, 2007

Ego, Go, O!

Last summer I wrote a post on selfishness. Around two months after that I got into a dicussion with someone on egos and egoism. Ever since that discussion I have been bothered by egos and what they actually are and most of all what we mean when we talk about them. I want to get into the bottom of this issue right here, right now. In the computer room of my school while being pissed off to have come here this morning to attend a lecture which was cancelled.
So, to start from the basics I will look into the sick mind of Sigmund Freud. He believed that the human self (or maybe even the animal self, how would I know) was divided into three parts. It consists of three components, which are the Ego, the Superego and the Id. These, let's call them building blocks, of the human psyche seem very random at first glance. What is this division based on? I do not know if I have the kind of patience it takes to read such extensive quantities of Freudian perversions, therefore I will let Wikipedia be my friend in this time of need. Indeed.
Firstly, I would like to point out that the word 'ego' is the first person singular personal pronoun in both Latin and Ancient Greek. When looking at the word's original meaning, it appears to be rather neutral. I would not dare to call the word 'I' negative nor positive. It just is. But the connotations the word ego have in its current use are multiple.

So what does this 'ego' Freud the Pervert was talking about mean?
Sigmund liked to use the iceberg analogy to describe the human psyche and I shall do the same. My sources (oh, my beloved Google!) tell me that the ego could be understood as the visible part of the iceberg, i.e. the part above the water line. Not the part visible to scuba-divers, that is something else. I firmly believe that is where dirty little Sigmund liked to spend most of his time - under the water. The active scuba-diver he was. Oh, Sigmund!

Negative so far? Positive?

I would still call the term and what is behind it rather neutral.

Let me make all of you rationalists of the world (who do not read my blog) think 'ego' is the most beautiful word that ever existed!

Apparently, my pervy partner in this particular crime, Sigmund believed that the ego represents rationality, good sense, reason and rational self-control. All things completely unfamiliar to me but who am I to argue with my homeboy Sig.

Sounds positive, right?

But I believe my favourite definition BROUGHT TO YOU BY GOOGLE! was "psychology jargon. use pride and proud instead."

Negative?

Not negative enough at least.

Funny?

Like hell.

Okay, so we can talk about the ego as the consciousness of one's own identity or as the conscious mind. But how interesting is that really? Not very. We, modern Westerners, want blood, vomit, shit and intestines! And what do we get? What we ordered! Otherwise there would be a reclamation letter headed my way soon. Customer services is my company's top priority. That is also why my business is understaffed and underpaid and my employees hate all the customers.

Now I will give the Princeton online dictionary a chance to prove what it is made of.
ego: an inflated feeling of pride in your superiority to others.
Now, that is what I am talking about! INFLATED.

Negative?

Oh yes.

I find it my duty to also inform you that ego is also a four-piece rock band from Northern Ireland. Pretty cool that a part of my psyche is a rock band. What does yours do? Does your ego build electric motor scooters?

Now I am more confused than ever.